Hope

When we found out Raymond had cancer, the doctor told us that he had it on his lymph nodes in his left lung, there was a small spot on his liver and a spot in his brain.  A week after Ray’s first chemo, we were scheduled for gamma knife radiation on his brain because chemo can’t get through the skull.  We were both feeling nervous and scared about the procedure.

There were 2 small spots in Raymond’s brain and a couple of suspicious spots that were radiated three months ago.  They did a procedure called gamma knife radiation.  The gamma knife is very precise.  It entailed getting a halo screwed into his skull.  First he had an MRI as they placed the halo on.  When he came out of the MRI and I saw the halo, he looked as if his head was turned into “robo-man!”  We had to wait for the team of neurosurgeons, radiologists and neuroscientists who met to come up with the plan on where and how to radiate the brain.  While we were waiting, I fed Ray a few snacks, maneuvering around the metal head gear he had on.  After the scientists and doctors got together to discuss their plan, (which took another hour), the radiation began.  They placed a colander type bowl over his head/halo and pin pointed specific spots to radiate. This process took two hours.  Those 2 small spots in his brain and a couple of suspicious spots were radiated;  57 minutes of actual radiation, another hour of changing colanders and position of the radiation.  I waited for what seemed an eternity but finally, he got the halo removed and we walked out of there.  What an process!

Yesterday we went to see the neurosurgeon to get the results of Raymond’s MRI on his brain.  It was good news,  the tumors in his brain are shrinking!  Dr. Mattel told us that he expected the tumors to keep shrinking and we are scheduled for another MRI in July.

This is good news indeed and we are hopeful that the cancer in his brain is gone for ever.

Hope is a true blessing.  Please keep hope in your heart for Raymond and keep praying for a miracle.  My hope is that he feels well enough soon to take a little camping trip, or simply go fishing off the river walk in Algonac.  I am not going to focus on how weak he feels, I am hopeful that he will get stronger by the day!  And so it is.

About 1lisaa

I've been on a spiritual quest my whole adult life. As a 59 year old retired school teacher and a long time observer of people, life, nature and miracles, I have decided to start a blog. As I began my blog I was a caregiver for my soul mate Raymond who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in 2011 and it has been quite a journey. Now, I continue this blog with memoirs, insights, and stories about this journey, called life. In this blog, I hope to find clarity and share spiritual lessons along the way. All comments and insights would be appreciated.
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5 Responses to Hope

  1. susy westmoreland says:

    Lisa what a journey…technology is unbelievable these days. What courage you have and I just love your spirit. Your love and wonderful dedication to Ray is just so very touching and beautiful.
    Talking about “earth angels” you certainly are one of them.
    Love you …….susy

  2. Teresa Jayne says:

    Lisa, my hope and prayers go out to both of you. Sometimes i think it’s harder to watch a loved one on the journey than it is to be on it. Please make sure someone is supporting you while you support him. If you want to or need to talk, please call me. Even when we don’t talk, you are with me in my heart always, sister. I love you, Teresa. (805) 794-0232.

  3. Debbie Graham says:

    Wonderful news! Everyday is a new journey. My love and prayers-Debbie

  4. Lisa,
    We are going to be out of town for a couple weeks–visiting Scot and the girls in Colorado. As soon as we are back home we will get on the computer for an update on Ray. You both will be in our thoughts and prayers everyday.
    We Love you, Uncle Rod and Aunt Barb

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