Love at First Write

Raymond and I met on the internet.  I have saved our daily correspondence that continued for two months before we met in person.  Needless to say, the saved file of these interactions, explorations and truly sharing our deepest hearts desires, is quite large.

Today I was going to write about the deep connection we felt for each other even before we met, but instead I will share his first letter to me and you can see why I fell in love with him. Love at first write!

Subject: you !

Date: February 22, 2010 9:40:28 AM

I want to say first, your reply to my note was very inspirational to read, it has restored my optimism that I have returned here to Michigan for the cosmic connection I crave.

The fact that you are a teacher is also a piece of my life, I was married to a teacher for 15 yrs. and she was a very good women. My connection to teachers goes back to my elementary days, I was a precocious child who was much loved by his teachers, they all seemed very concerned that I was not living up to my potential academically and did there very best to tame me down so I could receive the sacraments of a good education. I gave them all a difficult time not intentionally but because I was born of a spirited mother from a foreign land and her wild genes made me very excited about life and the prospect of getting out there and trying my life.

After a stint in the Army I became a voracious reader and went to a local community college completed two years and transferred to Wayne State as an Ed-major, I wanted to teach history and civics. The twist came when I met my wife to be, I got a good job at Ford Motor and never returned to Wayne.

The sixty’s shaped me, politically, socially and spiritually and I may have taken a vacation as I pursed my work career, but they never left me entirely. I now have completed the competitive part of my life and have come to the conclusion that the best things in life are truly free, because you can’t buy them, they are not for sale; peace, love, character, integrity, honesty, to name a few.

When my mom died this past Christmas eve I had the “aha” moment that smashed me in the face as to how short life is, I vowed to live it fully with as much love as I can give and get in the time remaining for me. I now sincerely want that “one women” I can connect with on all levels and to transcend all the levels of conventional communication to lock in with her on a spiritual level I have yet to experience. Hopefully not sounding trite, I want a friend, companion, pal, a listener, a talker and of course my last and grandest lover.

The fact that you have been a traveler, a searcher, and exude compassion and love (I get the vibe from your pics) makes me feel there is great potential possible for both of us if we have the courage to create something very precious…….as I’m of the belief that you don’t find love you create it.

I have to get to the store as the snow is falling hard here, I’m glad your home snug, with your cats, by the way I love both cats and dogs, had many cats as a boy, and just recently lost my dog Benny. In short it all seems very good to me and I want to explore it some more…your a cool lady, that I can tell, and that is what I need, laid back ,wise and grounded………..

Warmly,

Raymond

PS love your hair !

As I re-read this letter, I see how prophetic it was.  We did create something very precious in the, too few, years he had remaining.  We lived our life together, fully and with more love than either of us had ever experienced.  Everyone who saw us, could feel that love.  For those who didn’t know Raymond, or didn’t see his most intimate side, this post is for you, in honor of the love of my life, whom I met on the internet.

About 1lisaa

I've been on a spiritual quest my whole adult life. As a 59 year old retired school teacher and a long time observer of people, life, nature and miracles, I have decided to start a blog. As I began my blog I was a caregiver for my soul mate Raymond who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in 2011 and it has been quite a journey. Now, I continue this blog with memoirs, insights, and stories about this journey, called life. In this blog, I hope to find clarity and share spiritual lessons along the way. All comments and insights would be appreciated.
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2 Responses to Love at First Write

  1. judy lanphier says:

    dearest liza. again thank you for sharing your life and feelings with us. reading raymonds email to you does indeed help me to know and love him. this is why you had to go to michigan, why you had to leave your beloved kauai. to be with your parents and to meet and love raymond. reminds me of the IZ song, in this life to have been loved by you. you are on my mind everyday liza, know that.

  2. natalie sikora says:

    thank you for sharing such a beautiful letter, i love you my sweet sissy xoxo

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